I have to remember this.  It’s hard tho.

Days and weeks go by and then -bam- I am hit with the reminder of a significant loss. The pain goes deep, the tears fall without effort, the thoughts of despair begin their descent into the deepest parts of my hurting heart.

At times it’s hard to know whether it’s the grief or warfare-related.  Perhaps a combination.  Certainly the enemy uses it to get me off track in my thinking and then the focus becomes dark and troubled.

The journey to reframe my thoughts is so important. Reminding myself of purpose (God’s) and belonging (I do) and family (His). 

I didn’t come this far to walk away without the victory.

“Now this I know:
    The Lord gives victory to his anointed.
He answers her from his heavenly sanctuary
    with the victorious power of his right hand.
Some trust in chariots and some in horses,
    but we trust in the name of the Lord our God.”  (Psalm 20:6-7)

It’s coming.  Keep going.